The Rising Phoenix Review posted: " Lamb my reflection takes me bysurprise these days.i don't know when i had timeto age past seventeen.she'd be pissed, you know,that Promising Young Woman -she was going to go to med school,going to be somebody.she was smart, mature for her age.she was " The Rising Phoenix Review Lamb By J. Nider The Rising Phoenix Review Dec 28 Lamb my reflection takes me by surprise these days. i don't know when i had time to age past seventeen. she'd be pissed, you know, that Promising Young Woman - she was going to go to med school, going to be somebody. she was smart, mature for her age. she was desperate to be enough. she rages at me, claws desperately behind my eyes, her anger fire-bright. is this it? she wails. is this all? diapers and laundry and never enough sleep, you sacrificed my future for this? i try to hold her gently - the astringent taste of adolescent ambition singes, and I'd forgotten the bitterness until now - and hope that this girl, selfish and irrational and hurting, can forgive my happiness. i watch her burn in my sons eyes and i hope that funeral pyre can be enough for either of us. By J. Nider Biography: J. Nider is a writer-poet, weird-parent, tree-admirer, and likely-hobbit living in Northeastern Kansas on stolen Kansa land. Pieces of her previously published work can be found in Ink and Marrow Press, The America Library of Poetry, and Abyss and Apex Magazine. You can find her attempting to write, bake, meditate, overthrow the powers that be, and chase two kids (often many of these at the same time). Please don't find her on social media - she's, frankly, kind of bad at it. Comment Manage your email settings or unsubscribe.

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